Do you ever watch yourself do something and shake your head? “What the what?”
Two things in this case. I’ve mentioned before that I hate the phone. It rings and I’m unhappy to be disturbed. Plus they intimidate me. Then there is this other thing that I hate sudden changes in plan – even when the new plan is way better than the old plan. Give me five minutes with the new plan and I love it, but at first I’m always resistant.
So when someone calls me and suggests something they always hear annoyance in my voice. (I’m also a horrible poker player so I don’t mask it well.) Often the first thing someone asks me is, “Is everything OK? You sound upset.”
The problem is that I’m a jerk.
Happened three times in the last week. Treek called, Mom called and Dave called. Did it to all three of them.
Obviously I should be sorry. And I certainly am. But I’m also angry at myself. It is almost self-destructive. If those three people weren’t cool, I’d have missed out on spending time with them all. Treek is going to hang out for a few days next week. Mom came by and brought the best supper I ha this week (turned the leftovers into lunch so it was two meals). And the afternoon Dave and I spent playing games was the highlight of the week.
Silly Rabbit! Time to shape up.